Be True to You

Recently I had a pep talk with myself.  I had to remind myself to be me and not try to fit into someone else's box or apologize for being who I am.

I shouldn't need to have this talk with myself.  At the age of 40 I should be able to confidently walk through my life.  I should care very little what others may think about what I choose to do, but I still battle with this.  I fall into old habits, especially with people who knew me more than 20 years ago.

I do what I do each day for very specific reasons.  The activities I choose not to do are also for very specific reasons.  I wonder if people who don't know me well apply their own reasons to my actions and misunderstand me.  As I wonder about what others think, it can affect my actions.  I may question myself, apologize for myself, or change what I am doing.

I didn't want to have this talk with myself.  I wanted to confidently be who I am, not apologize for who I am or change myself.  I always want to move confidently forward.  If someone wonders about my actions they can ask me.  They can tell me their thoughts.  If they have decided to put reasons to my actions that are not my own it doesn't have to affect me.  I will continue to be who I am.  What they think about my actions doesn't change who I know that I am.

I know this being seems easy, but it isn't.  I should be able to be, but I have to remind myself.  I have to consciously remind myself to walk in my own shoes and be true to who I am and what I believe in and what I know is good for me.  Hopefully after a few more of these pep talks and a little more practice, I will simply be able to walk and not need to remind myself to simply be.