Once my infusions were complete, I had a couple of days to be home and to rest. I managed to do a few household tasks and walk in the sun. I enjoyed the sunshine on my face. I felt like a flower soaking up the rays.
I continued to feel nauseous those few days. My nauseousness would come and go throughout the day. Even though I was no longer receiving infusions, I think the medicine was still making its way through me. My arm was refusing to wake up. It felt like it hung limp at my side. My collar bone and overall left side felt bruised to the touch. I slept for over 10 hours and it didn't seem to make a dent in my problems.
In order for me to keep from going crazy or getting depressed I had to be in the moment.
In the moment, I had lost some use of my muscles on the left side of my body. I didn't feel well and was tired. Also, in the moment there was hope that I would get better.
MS was not going to go away, but these symptoms may so I hoped and used that hope to stave off depression. I know that when I have mobility back I will use it and be thankful for it. Until then, I will hope and be patient and see and be thankful for what is right now.
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