People say that you must do something over and over again until it's real. It could be a new habit you are trying to acquire, a belief you are trying to have, or a job you are trying to learn. It is in the repetition that you begin to master whatever you want to master.
On October 30th, after days of the emotional roller coaster I awoke feeling better than I had felt in days. I felt at peace and ready to take on whatever the day held. The next day I leaned in to my Daddy the way I have for years. Whenever something had come along that was difficult or stressful or scary I would lean on Him knowing that He had it taken care of. He wasn’t surprised by anything happening in my life. He wasn't stumped at what to do. He loved me and whatever terrible thing was trying to take me out He would help me through it.
For a few days I felt strong because, for the first time in a long time, I wasn’t trying to hold myself up. It seems that it takes many days of telling yourself that something is true before you actually believe it and act on it. I was feeling like all those things I had been telling myself for the past month about faith and hope and strength were actually a reality in me and I didn't have to fight so hard to believe them or convince myself of them.
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