God gave me the grace to handle my circumstance (breast cancer) in my time, not anyone else’s circumstance or time. During my battle with breast cancer people would look at me with wonder at how I was going through this ordeal. They were in awe because they couldn't imagine it, but I was given the grace for it. It is only by the grace of God.
The final most encouraging part of the passage from Jesus Calling was, “Keep your eyes and mind wide open to all that I am doing in your life.” My focus had to be redirected from uncertainty and fear to revelation and hope. God was working. He had not abandoned me now so He could show up later. He was with me each moment of each day strengthening and encouraging me. I needed to pay attention. I needed to stop trying to control my thoughts and feelings and, instead, release them to Him and then watch what wondrous things He would do. I prayed that I would walk this journey in the present and not try to look too far ahead. I knew I only needed to know one step at a time and even that wasn’t revealed until I began moving my foot. I needed to be reminded of the past and how faithful God had always been. I needed to let go and trust. The battle was always raging.
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