Victorious Voice

I hadn't realized that it took 2 months to begin believing the words I was telling myself during the beginning of my breast cancer diagnosis.  Those 2 months ended over 4 years ago.  There have been many days since when I still have to control my thoughts.

I have to daily feed myself positive thoughts about who I am, encouragement about what I can do, hopes about the future and belief that none of the things that come at me in this life will take me down.

I remind myself that I am healthy.  Being 40 with a health history doesn't stop me from accomplishing major physical tasks like moving heavy weights and running distances.  I remind myself of my wonderful family.  I am eternally blessed to have my girls and my husband.  My girls have character beyond what I ever dreamed or hoped for them.  My husband is the model of support and stability.  I remind myself of what I have already accomplished.  Once I graduate with my master's degree, I will have completed 20 years of schooling, for 7 years of that time I was an adult with responsibilities.  I remind myself I've already gone through the trials of breast cancer, dealt with surprise physical limitations, some of which won't leave me.  I remind myself of my goals and hopes.  I remind myself of which goals I've accomplished and which ones I still need to complete.

If I want to be victorious, I have to keep the thoughts of weakness, inability, lack and weariness away.  They will always be there, but their voice should never be louder than the victorious voice.  Even if it takes a battle, the voice of victory over trials and hardships in life must prevail. Then we will prevail.